i
am
passionate
complete alone,
but happy with
some
others
caring
intense
afraid, but constantly
fighting
it
contradictory
hedged about with protections
instinctive
emotionally motivated
introverted
unwilling to talk/unable to shut
up
the owner of a mask that 90%
of the people i meet
will never
get
past -
and if you think you've seen
behind the mask,
trust me:
unless you have seen me
undone by emotion,
held me
while i dissolved in tears
or in the aftermath
of a panic attack
or had
a three am conversation
about things in the center
of both our beings,
you
haven't.
i am
allowed to make my own choices
about who i let in
i am
too quick to accept guilt
for denying the fantasies of strangers
and i need to remember
that while i am responsible
for being honest
and true to myself in my interactions
with others,
i
am
not
responsible
for making sure fantasies
and reality
ever match up.
i am
quick to love
and slow to let go,
unable to forget
but quick to forgive
and understand
my forgiveness is for you
but also
for myself,
because i refuse to hate
no matter what is done.
i am
a service-oriented
painslut
bratty
pet
submissive
and i am the only one
who decides
to whom
i submit.
i am
myself.
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