Confusion

You care
  i feel it in your hands
   on my body,
 Your constant finding me
   the way you see any time
    i've gone away mentally.
You don't care
   i feel it in your words
   your refusal to see me
 Your withdrawal
   from the closeness we shared
  for five short months
You care
   i see it in your eyes,
  in the way you reach out
   any time i hurt,
 in your smiles and in the way
 you try to make me laugh.
 So for now
   just for now
    i'm sitting in a corner
covering my confusion up
  trying not to show hurt or anything else
 because gods forbid i have feelings
   and waiting to see.
Waiting
   to hear
to speak
   to feel
because sometimes
   waiting is all i can do.